Clenched Fists

     I had a tough day today.  Just irritated.  At life.  The kids.  Planning dinner.
     Then came my devotion today: My lover spoke and said to me, “Arise my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me (Song of Songs 2:10 NIV).  Truthfully, I tried to escape.  I didn’t want to engage my heart.  But as I made the decision to open the page again and re-read the Scripture, I felt Jesus ask me, “Will you let me romance you?  Can you let go of the grip you’re so desperately trying to keep and let me romance you?”
     I’m undone yet again.  It’s hard to relinquish control in this place where so much feels out of control.  Tears come as I let go.  I think battling emotions is as tough as dealing with this new environment.  I’m in the right place, this I know.  *sigh*  I just wish transition could be easier.
     I look out the window.  The kids are outside playing volleyball, laughter filling the air.  I smile and head to where they are.  To the right is the beautiful Desert Rose in bloom.  Such beauty in arid conditions.  I feel the constriction loosen in my chest, in my hands.  Yes, there is beauty wherever the Lord is.  Beauty in laughter, beauty in nature. I’m reminded why I love Him so, why I’ve agreed to trust Him with my heart, with my life.
     I thank God for rescuing me once again, and loosening my grip.  I thank Him for opening my eyes to His glory, the beauty that He romances me with every day.